Tuesday, November 30, 2004
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so fast! 30 nov liaoz.... yupz.... anyway, just now went to the pri sch class bbq... and urm... not bad larz.. onlt thing is that there is so much food been left over coz a lot either never come or eat very little.... so that is why lorz.... very tired.. one thing that i know is that jack changed so much.. if amelia did not call him, i would not know it is him.... hahaz.... bao ming also.... in a sense larz../ coz i cannot recognise him.... till the time when jessica told me it is bao ming then i know.... girls ma.// did not change much lorz... or maybe coz i still kept in contact with them... that is why... i dun have much change in them.... seriously, boys, except fang rui, have change a lot lolz... at least to me....
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11/30/2004 05:04:00 PM
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Saturday, November 27, 2004
:: to jie... ::
to sze rui....
dunno.... just now when i was on the phone with u... u remember me saying that the photo is nice but it is hurting, that was the photo that we took with glenda on 22 nov, the last day of our school.... all along, u were so eager to contact, even after o level and now, u just tell me that u wanna 2 delete all the contacts....as ur mei... wad a nice sentence to say" maybe you should go ahead and make new friendz lor"... didn't i say b4? kor, jie or di... i will not let connections stop? i will still contact you all one lorz.... maybe no one ever tell u.... be my kor or jie was never easy.... coz i know.... i am one that always wanna attention... always wanna my "family" members to be there for me when i need them.... also one... like er ge say.... one that knows how to sa jiao.... sure do... i dunno.... i know i cannot promise that i can work for the whole of dec in the house of feng shui but.... i dunno....
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11/27/2004 01:51:00 AM
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
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sian.... flu... cough... sore throat earlier have liaoz... soon fever... wad only...
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11/25/2004 04:02:00 PM
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
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for once, how i wish i am not 15... if i am not 15, then i can work liaoz.... sigh... why must i be 15... yesterday is my last day in sch... yup... sad... so fast 4 yrs in damai liaoz.... miss it... yupz..
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11/23/2004 04:34:00 PM
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
:: for my kor ::
kor, after so long, i still dun understand... with each passing minute of reading his blog, i will tend to fall harder.. why i still cannot let go? why? almost 1 yr for me to heal liaoz.... but still.... when i read his blog, feelings tend to rush back.... today, when i know that he always drink soft drink... and now that he is sick, i nearly jump up... soft drink? sick? i dunno.... did i owe him the previous lifetime, that cause me to hurt this lifetime? why? now i understand why he say read after o level.... nov one was ok... oct was a disaster.... nearly break again.... why kor....
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11/20/2004 03:46:00 PM
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why ppl are so scared of telling others, i like you? i still dun understand? why er ge is always the one who make me worry so much... i dun understand furthur.... today saw his blogspot and i think i saw one at the side... this one is for my mei... unless he got 2 mei.. then i dunno... or unless he is refering to someone else.... then i dunno.... he typed there to go and study NOW.... now then i see... a bit regret lorz.... miss the words...come to think of it.. i think i will miss him... gonna to finish O level liaoz.... will miss his sentence, study harder.... or go and study now... or juz study... suddenly feel like going back, going back to prelims that time and start all over/. though i know i will start all over with the same attitude and everything, bnut one thing i would like to repeat is his sentence.. will miss it.... 4 years le... know him for 4 yrs le... so fast... also suddenly feel like going back to last yr to capture that moment of smile from him, the way of saying hi from him... the time spend in eldds.... dun misunderstood... i still dun really like eldds... er ge... sigh... i still dun understand.. why u are always the one? the one to make me worry for u... but also the one that i will think of when i am sad.... ok larz... i dun deny that kor also will cross my mind at times... but not at many times as u lorz... er ge.... will u be there for me next yr? or like what u say last yr, "after this year, i also dunno if we will contact each other or not"
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11/20/2004 03:27:00 PM
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
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korz, if i really cannot make it into poly... treat it as if u dun have such a mei.... especially jacky, treat it as u dun have such a mei.... i dun want to be in the scene that when ppl ask... hey... thought that u got a mei, so where is ur mei now that o level results is out.. and i dun want you both to say, huh? my mei ar? (for chye eng, he will say, one, that is vanessa went into her own jc... xinyu ar? i dunno... she cannot go into poly, what she do now, i dunno)... i also dun want jacky to say the same thing.... i rather not....
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11/18/2004 01:39:00 PM
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
:: for someone out there who has make a difference in my life... ::
u used to guide me through, used to take away all my troubles, was the role model for me.... u were everything, nice, friendly, cheerful and one that i would always turn to when i needed help... u were also the one who make me study last yr, dun ask me why.. must be coz u keep on saying me... saying that i was no good in my subjects that had caused me to study harder... u were the one among all my "family" members that i dun understand the most, in terms of ur inner self...but u were also the one who was the most troublesome... why i say that? coz u were the one whom i concern about most.... dunno? but for once, as time pass us, can i know back the old you? it seems to be impossible... but for once, can i go back to last yr, and capture that moment? i miss your laughter.... miss your way of saying hi.... also miss the talks we had... can i for once, take back that special moment, i sort of miss it.. trust me.. i do.... really... for those who are reading this, dun ask me this is meant for who.... i feel that the person i am refering here should know.. (i hope? or not i think i really dunno what to say..)
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11/16/2004 01:41:00 PM
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for once, i hope that the day in which i am supposed to collect my o level results will never come.... maybe coz i feel that my science and humanties have already, sad to say, gone case... then i reallydun want to get back the resukts, dun want to know the future.... i dun want to know.... will i at the end of the day be as successful as him, or as kor? in a sense that i can land into poly, i really dunno.... i dun even know if i can pass... sad to say, i really dunno... kor kor....
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11/16/2004 01:41:00 PM
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Saturday, November 13, 2004
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i dun want to see him... for once, how i wish i can have another online er ge.... same like chye eng, dun meet each other one... isn't that better? at least feelings might change, things might change.... for once, isn't it better that things stay the same? that i still dunno anything... still the one who is always so blur... making things stay the same, at least i still can get the laughters... not tears.... wad only... (24 jan 2005)
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11/13/2004 10:38:00 PM
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Thursday, November 11, 2004
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it only takes one website for me to know everything.... to know if i still like him.. to know if things are going well for him or not... but this website can also lead me to tears.... or a smile when i know that i no longer like him.... this website can also destroy my o level results... why do i say that, it is because when i read his blog, i know for sure, in one way or another, i will be affected and that my studies will be affected,.... sure... but still... a bit curious on the blog suddenly.. but plz... if anything goes wrong, the person who is reading this, plz stop me from reading anything from his blog till after o level... at least after o level... i got about 6 months then i will start my another study life.... at least i can use these 6 months to settle the feelings,... plz....
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11/11/2004 03:47:00 PM
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things as usual and that i am about to finish my o level already... a few more papers to go larz... 22 finish.... nearly forgot wad is my username liaoz... so long never sign in already.. hahaz...
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11/11/2004 09:06:00 AM
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